For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. - John 3:16

For the Lord loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones. . . - Psalm 37:28

I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me. - Proverbs 8:17

This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. – 1 John 4:9-11
A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. - Proverbs 17:17

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - excerpts from 1 Corinthians 13:4-13
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lovelovelovelovelove.
i can't get it off my mind!!
my mind is on the verge of exploding these days, with thoughts and questions coming in and out of my head as fast as i can process them! but one thing that has consistently been on my mind is God and his love for us, and our love for each other.
it's stressful to have questions and concerns all the time, but i've also been really excited these days. my future is a huge question mark at the moment. i know adults always love saying "you're just a kid! you've got TONS of time to figure everything out!!", but in the next week i have to find out/decide if (i can/should) take classes at moorpark in the fall, if it's even possible for me to graduate highschool in two years with my AA, if i should combine my junior and senior years into one year, graduating with my brother in 2010, and what all the pros and cons of doing all that would be.
whoa.
as of right now, i want to go to Joshua up at Hume Lake, but the thought of graduating in '11, and then going to Joshua for a year while everyone else in my class is going off to colleges scares me!
i don't know. i think Joshua would open up tons of doors for me in the future, but getting there is a terrifyingly daunting thought. anyways, back to loving others...haha, i think going to Joshua would be such a good thing for me, learning in a God-centered environment would be so cool! and it would make showing Gods love to others so much easier because everyone around me would be in the same mindset!
on that note, though, i don't want to go to Joshua just for that. i should be surrounded/surrounding others with that same mindset of love already! :)
i don't know if i make sense. probably not, but i'm just as confused as you probably are. i
t's hard to know that God knows my plan and i know i don't!
eeeek!

LOVE

Spreading The Love.
Does that make sense?
I drew a picture a few days ago that pretty much sums up what i'm trying to write, but basically, this is what i'm thinking:

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What if someone planted a hypothetical seed in your heart. And that person (hypothetically) watered the seed, nourished it, and helped it grow. Soon the seed would grow and grow and after a while that person would be so filled with love that they were ready to plant a seed in someone else's heart. It's not a complicated idea. Showing someone God's love. The person could have the hardest heart in the world, but what if you slowly started showing them you loved them? He would slowly start to appreciate what you were doing, and maybe even open up to you. Soon he would be happy as a clam when you were together, whether it be at church, the neighborhood, school, anywhere. but that love he feels when you are with him wouldn't be stationary. Soon his wearing of several different masks, (one for school, one for family, one for friends) would get old. He can only hide his joy for so long before he wants to go out and spread his love to others! All it took was you, loving one person who needed it. A ripple effect. Be the stone that drops into the water! Be the first wave. Change one person in your life, and he'll be able to change one person in another's.
Spreading The Love.

Friday day.

Wowie! 

i'm so tired. today rebekah and i went to the topanga mall, and walked around in a big circle over and over and over again. partly because that mall is so huge now getting lost is easily done, and partly because i'm indecisive.

after lots of stops and starts and several "maybe" dresses, i finally found "the one" for the soiree! then we looped back (because going in circles in our specialty) to get shoes for our dresses, and we got a marvelous deal: buy one pair and get the second for $10! sweet! oh and we got the accessories for it, so even though it took us 4 hours, at least we won't have to go back there anytime soon! 

oh, well, actually, we both need to find clutches still...but i won't bring that up until we've both rested our legs for a few days :p.

anyways, i look forward to writing deep and emotional things ( < slight sarcasm--with a hint of truth) but for right now this is all you're gunna get. sorry :(
tomorrow is Worldquest in the morning, then baseball game! woop! fun day. ciao!

Invasion.

Cancer. 
every aspect of it is Scary.
the word alone is enough to give you chills.
those commercials make you a little sick inside, those letters you get in the mail, from the hospital you've never heard of still upset you a little. . .
somehow, the word Cancer always sticks out.
i think it's because it's a Scary word.
looking up Cancer in the dictionary, you'd see that Invasion is one of the listed definitions.
Invasion.
no one wants their home Invaded.
no one likes their 'personal space' Invaded.
i think something Invading your body is the ultimate Invasion.
God lets us control a lot of things. what we wear, what we eat, who we talk to, what we do. . .
but when Cancer Invades your body, there isn't much we can do about it.
i think we're so used to being able to control everything that when God puts something in our lives that we can't control, we get Scared.
Cancer is Scary to everyone, but what does Scary even mean? causing fright or alarm.
since we all love to control things, can't we control what frightens or alarms us? why not? why not stand up, face our fears and get rid of whatever is Invading our bodies? 
i think it can be done. i think we could do it.
God puts us on this earth for a reason, and it's not to live for and by ourselves. if we're here together, we might as well help each other through our trials.
Cancer.
it's a sickening, awful disease, but not something we have to be Scared of. lets beat it :)

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I with uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10

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Hi. This is a old blog that i'm reviving. I read through all my old posts, decided they were dumb, and deleted them. I'll make more, don't fear. My throat hurts.