Wind

I haven't been posting on this blog about what has been going on with my neighbors. In a nutshell: my best friend since forever is named Lauren. Yesterday morning Lauren's Momma passed away.
Cancer has stamped it's mark on yet another life. Praise God Mrs L is no longer hurting, but is now loving and rejoicing with Him.

I'm pretty sure she is watching over us here in this neighborhood. I hope she knows that, whether Lauren likes it or not, Lauren is stuck with me forever. :)

I haven't cried yet. I think I'll cry after I finish this.

I walked by their house yesterday and what I saw sticking out of their lawn struck a chord with me. It's nothing special, just a colorful pinwheel like this one:

It was windy yesterday, and that pinwheel was spinning round and round and round. I started thinking about the wind that was powering that wheel. I hope this doesn't end up sounding like a cheese ball analogy, put here are my thoughts:
In all my 16 years of life, wind has blown -in a strong gust or a slight breeze- every single day.
I bet there is not one day that the slightest amounts of wind have not danced around someone or something around here.
I'm sure it wasn't a continuous flow of breezes, but I would bet that if I was to stick a pinwheel in my grass, at the end of every day that pinwheel would have spinned, at least just a tiny bit.

Mrs. Lowry's earthly body was ruined by cancer. Thankfully the Lord has new, perfect bodies ready and waiting for us when He brings us home. She isn't here anymore. She is healed.

I know we are all going to be really sad for a long time, but I think Mrs. Lowry is the wind.

I need to plan some worship through music at my church, asap. Even if I have to lead those kids in praise by myself, it needs to happen.
I'm trying not to be lukewarm anymore. lukewarm is terrifyingly awful. I feel the need to light a match under these kids to wake them up [myself included].

Your Love Never Fails - Jesus Culture

I don't know much of anything about this band, but last night at a friends church we praised Him with that song. It was glorious.

Today was:
Math class.
Lunch.
massive sweep of my whole room so that it is ready for saturday when my older sister and her two friends come home from college. (!!)
Three episodes of American Idol.
I cried when Haeley was voted off and everyone else was crying. I am an emotional crier. If you cry, I cry.
Target. I got my one-piece for Hume for this summer. I wanted to get one before everyone freaked out and bought one for spring break. hahahaha.

Currently:
Wide awake.

Scared of:
the darkness of my room and house. I'd love a nightlight. I'm afraid of the scary man i saw at target coming to get me. :|
I shouldn't have watched all those detective/murder shows way back when I was younger. Oi.
I am not afraid. I am not afraid. I am not afraid. :(

Facination:
Dreams. I wish mine weren't so scary, because I love the concept.

Wish:
That (*book)knowledge would come more easily to me. Being home-schooled is hard. SAT=8 days from now.

I need to pray more. I have a feeling that if I did I wouldn't be scared of things and I wouldn't be worried about my life.
So I gotta go lay some things down before the King.
Have a great day tomorrow. Spread some love.

I have a bit of a sleep debt building up. I think i maybe might have insomnia. I need to focus. SAT on Saturday....no pressure.... wait never mind there is pressure. sweet.

I need to stop playing piano and start getting things done. Right.....NOW

Oh. 10-99* people from one of the states on the other side of the country (the right side) (east coastal region) visited my blog. (fdhfjldjrudfhsl HI GUYS!
*I know I shouldn't start a sentence with numbers and I should've said "ten to ninety-nine" instead But** if I had done that then I wouldn't be saying this!
**I don't think one is to start a sentence with "But" either. But I did. But sometimes I do not. But most of the time I sometimes do.

I watched a princess movie today and it was a stupid one. One of the opening lines was "Every girl want's to be a princess." I don't think that is true. did the writers of that cheesy movie ask every girl on this planet what they wanted to be? I know they in fact did not because i was never asked what I wanted to be. I was asked by aunts and uncles and neighbors and such, but no cheesy movie writer ever asked.

This is how i feel. Interpret however you like (hint* frazzlestresschaos).

What the heck does AKA even stand for? and what does IE stand for?

PS: ps means post script. i'm going to wiki AKA and IE right...... now.

I feel as though I have dried up.
Instead of typing I think I'm just going to listen. for tonight, anyways.

AKA I do want to write about what I feel God is calling me to do these days and how I feel about said things, but for now all 8 of my followers can enjoy this nice, 3-day Valentines weekend without any heavy stuff brought to you by me.
>Love someone tomorrow, ok?

LALALA*

OH MY GOSH YOU GUYS! i went my friends church tonight, and holy smokes. best.message.i'veheard. ....in a long long time.

I AM GOING TO ELABORATE on the message/call to action. i am. i am going to. but REAL QUICK lemme break down my day for you so as to maybe shed some light as to why i can't elaborate now: 7:45 leave for school. 5PM get home from school, bake cookies immediately, and then quickly leave to go to youth group. 9PM in n out (i do not like in n out. yes i am a human and i live in california. :O ) 9:20 get home and individually wrap all 40 cookies and cut out and tie on and sign 40 valentine cards. now(10:25) math homework that is due at 9AM tomorrow.

i think i thrive in stressful/rushed situations. at least i hope i do, because if i don't then these Logarithm functions&graphing (??) i have to do will never be learned. ahh bye!

*Sorry for yelling at you with my capslock throughout this. sometimes when i'm rushed i talk fast or i yell.

oops. forgot to write yesterday. Mondays and Tuesdays and Wednesdays are hard. I am not home for most of those days.
I am off the the junior college for my classes. leaveat: 7:45 getbackat: 5. oi. Yeah for getting high school and college creds!
Tonight..... is the night..that i will write.

Happy Sabbath!
I love Sundays. We should call them Fundays.

Lets just jump right in. God gives all us believers spiritual gifts.
And now, to get us started, a quote from my favorite Book.

Now about spiritual gifts, brothers. I do not want you to be ignorant. You know that when you were pagans, somehow or other you were influenced and led astray to mute idols. Therefore I tell you that no one who is peaking by the Spirit of God says, "Jesus be cursed," and no one can say, "Jesus is Lord," except by the Holy Spirit. There are different kinds of gifts, but the same Spirit. There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men. - I Corinthians 12:1-6, the Bible

To someone who doesn't believe that Jesus died on a cross so that we sinners could live and then 3 days later that same dead man rose from the dead and returned to Heaven, spiritual gifts probably sound a whole lot like something you'd find in a Harry Potter movie or something.

I have not read the Harry Potter books, and have only seen 2 of the movies, so I am in no place to judge what is and isn't and should and shouldn't be in that series. But from what i've seen, there are a FEW similarities (now that I think about it). Correct me if I'm wrong, but it seems to me that a certain group of people (in the Potter series), whether the good guys or the bad guys... (or both?) has the ability to perform spells and use magic and what not. And the rest of the world cannot.
I kind of see spiritual gifts in the same light. (I think) The people in Harry Potter get the ability to do all that fancy magical stuff only if they are born into a family that already has those powers running through their blood and floating around in his/her gene pool (eww).
You and I are given our spiritual gifts only after being reborn. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! II Corinthians 5:17, the Bible

Does that make sense? Stop me if I'm flying through all this too quickly (my apologies, I'm going to church pretty soon here).

Speaking of church! I love when transitions come up with such ease! Last Sunday my youth group took these quizzes to find out what our spiritual gifts are. On the quiz were questions like "Do you enjoy cooking meals for other people and having them stay at your house?" and "Is lawn care something you enjoy?" ....I don't know where they were going with the grass questions..?
BUT it was cool to kind of gauge where our strengths and weaknesses were in the Body of Christ. <-- another topic for another day. Fore sure.

Long blog post short, You should pray. Yes, definitely pray a lot, talking to God is always nice. But when you are praying, maybe a couple of times you could ask God to show you what your spiritual gift(s) are! And then ask Him for an opportunity to use them! And then we will be one massive family of doers!! letsdoit.

I think i love the Tumblr layout. That will have to be another project for another day.
All that to say, I don't think i'm tech-savvy enough to leave this site and create another one, let alone personalize it and make it cool. One day, one day.

I SAW DEAR JOHN TODAY! <-- girl moment. sorry, but it was so great. so so so SO great. Go see it. :)

I would type more, but I must stop for the night. my room is currently occupado with a 4 year old so that's kind of off limits at the moment, however tomorrow I will be free to sit and type and listen to Sufjan and Regina and draw and light candles and get myself far more comfortable than I should be in this temporary Earth.

On that really weird note: Goodnight.

-I am re-learning the piano.
-today I found out Hume Lakes summer theme is "Exusez Mwa"... the 3 Mucketeers.
-I need to find a 3rd musketeer.
-It's raining and I went to the gym this morning.
-I no longer have my own television. It was an unnecessary distraction...but aren't all distractions unnecessary?
-If I spell unnecessary right the first time I try too I feel accomplished.
-I had a really weird dream last night. I remember waking up feeling frazzled, but i don't remember what it was about.
-When I awake from a dream I always promise myself I'll remember it but I never do.
-My uncle once told me he has/had a book next to his bed and the minute he wakes up after dreams he writes everything about them down. I think that's a great idea.
-I need to do some Missions work, like.... yesterday. and today and tomorrow.
-I am going to write things down (unless i'm deathly ill or I don't have internet access. But I don't think i'll be deathly ill, because I already had swine flu and I survived*) everyday.

I need to write everything down.
Starting tomorrow. Because right now i'm swallowing down a fear that I have an insomniac-type problem because I don't fall asleep very easily and a nice little alarm clock inside me rings and rings until I am rudely awakened at yucky hours of the night and early morning. So tomorrow, after I go to bed and wake up a few times then get out of bed, I will write. I read somewhere that the more you write and read stuff the smarter your become.